The tears are hot and wet as they roll down my face.

Memories of my grandmother flood my mind.

Who's to blame?

She died before my 18th birthday..

Cupcake...

I was her little cupcake, her peanut.

I miss her..

Is it me?

I mean my grandfather died on November 2, 2002

My birthday is November 7th...

I miss them both.

But who's to blame.

If my father would have taken better care of my grandma, would she still be alive?

If he would have spent every waking minute with her, would she still be here?

Would she still be able to see her peanut graduate?

Grandma where are you?

I miss you soo much.

I wish that I could see you right now and tell you how much I love you.

Why did you leave?

Why couldn't dad have taken better care of you?

He is the reason your dead...

He should have been there every minute of every day...

Who's to blame?

Is Lynnette to blame because she lived with you?

Is it my fault for not coming to see you?

I love you...

Who's to blame grandma..who?

I love you.....