It hurt. It hurt like hell. Even though this was on AIM, it hurt.

“I’m sorry, I like someone else.” Tears spilled over. Even though it wasn’t like I could hear him, the words cut my heart. I wiped a few tears as he explained.

“The same day you told me…Someone told me that she liked me…and…”

I remembered seeing him with that girl… and my friend telling me about how that girl liked him…

“Is it Vikki?” I typed, trying to control myself but failing miserably.

“…”

“Someone…said something about her…” I persisted, wanted to know the truth.

“Yes.” There was a pause before he continued typing. “We’re still friends, right?”

Damn, I had really fallen for him. I never thought those words could hurt so much. It was laughable really. All those cartoons have a guy fall for a girl and then she says, “Sorry, I don’t like you that way. But we’re still friends, right?” You laugh because it’s so predictable and funny, but when it happens to you, it hurts like crazy.

“Yes, we’re still friends.” What else could I say? I didn’t want to lose him completely.

“Nothing’s changed, right?”

“Yes.” I ran to the bathroom to wash my face. I wasn’t in the privacy of my room so I couldn’t let anyone see me crying. When I came back, he had asked me not to tell anyone. Of course I said yes. Can you say no to someone you love?

When he was done asking me stupid questions, I asked him something.

“Why does everyone think I’m trustworthy?”

“Because you are. I trust you.”

I couldn’t take it anymore and I quickly signed off. I ran to my room and started to cry again. What’s the point of being trustworthy when no one really loves you?

-YuLian