The boy who saves me has left and now I'm falling into the darkness once again. As things in my life worsen I fall further into the darkness. This time without someone to save me. This time I fall alone into the deep darkness of this world. At night I begin to wonder "will he save me again? Or will he let me fall until I’m no more?" I wonder where he is and why he left. Is it because I won’t let him or anyone else in? Is it because I’m in a box? Each day I fall father because no one around me cares. The boy appears but he's not alone. This time my brother is with him. I’m surprised to see my brother here. But he's only there for a moment. "See” the boy says "your letting people in. you’re letting your family in." "Only because he cares" I point out. "That may be” says the boy "but you’re letting people in." Each day they appear and as they do the light that was once growing dim grew brighter. "Soon' I begin to think "soon they'll save me I just know it." But each day I begin to fall farther. My brother stops coming with the boy. This saddens me but then two girls appear and I immediately recognize them to be Kayla and Taylor. They hold out their hand out to me but I back away. I don’t know why I back away, I just do. Somedays I think I’m completely lost in the darkness but then I feel someone pull me and I can see the light again. The boy stops coming but my friends never stop. More of my friends appear but I don't take their hands. I yearn for my family to appear, but they don't. "Why would they?" I ask myself "I'm just the invisible child." At night I cry myself to sleep. I've lost hope that my family will appear. I start leaning on my friends when I have problems. I stop turning to my family, they just cause me more and more pain. When I feel like there’s a hole in my chest my friends are there to close it again. Each day my friends hold out their hands. But I don't grab them, something’s holding me back. One day I meet someone new. He immediately becomes a very close friend of mine. After awhile he becomes like a big brother to me. I love Japan so I call him my nii-chan (big brother) he cares about me. When I’m sick he worries. When I’m scared he comforts me. When I’m mad he makes me laugh.  When I cry he dries my tears and gives me a reason to smile. He’s always there for me when I need him the most. It probably seems like I love him and it's true, I love him. I've never told him because I know all he sees me as is a little sister. I've learned to deal with it. I'm glad that I have him in my life. Even if we're just friends. You can never have too many friends. The day finally comes when I take my friends hands and walk out of the darkness; even if my family never came. I don't care, I have my friends. I know they'll always be there for me. So now I’m out of that world of darkness and despair. I may never be able to stay in the light. I may fall into the fall into the darkness again but, I know my friends will always be there to help me. when I have family problems  like: their keeping secrets from me, I get treated like I’m invisible, or my mom want me to be my brother. If I have normal problems like: I'm having problems at school, I fight with a friend, or I lose someone, my friends are always a call, text or message away. Their always willing to listen to my problems or give me advice. They'll always be there even though my family isn't. Some people say "you should go to your family if you have problems not your friend.' well my response to that is "what if your family doesn't care? Like mine. My family doesn't care if I have problems. They don't want to hear them." I may be weird or strange but I don't care. I don't care as long as I have my friends. If I have my friends then I don't care what the world thinks. So to all of my friends I say "thank you for caring and giving me a reason to show a true smile not one that covers my pain." some of my friends don't know they saved me. I still thank them though, because they did save me and they are my friends. As long as I have friends the darkness will NEVER swallow me.