Like waves I feel it coming

Ebbing closer and closer

pulsing in my chest

I know what's coming

Even if I tell myself that it won't

It will still come

I brace myself for the worst

And it comes

I feel alone and scared

Free and wonderous

I want to escape this spot

Dreading the horror will arrive here

Demons will sprout from the ground

And eat me whole

But I wouldn't be able to escape fast enough

So I don't bother trying

A whimper escapes my lips

I feel torn in twenty directions all at one

I want to cry out

To be heard

I need some one to comfort me

But I don't want to be touched

I don't want words to distrupt this moment

Because, though I hate it

Though it voilates my thoughts

Screams in my mind

And tears at the strings of my heart

I long for it

To be any where

And every where

But here

I want London's streets

Venace's canals and New York's lights

I want to stars to burst

The sun to shine

The ocean to fill the world

I want to drown in it all

To burst from my skin

Which is tingling on every surface

But it's big

And I'm small

It might take me

And I might not return again

And before I am able to leave

To breathe

To think anything through

It retreats all at once

Leaving only the scent of it's presence behind

And I am able to breathe again

To smile

To laugh

To be human once more

But I miss it already

I hate it

Because I know I let go of a part of me

The sane part at least

But I love it

Hate it

Need it

And it may never come back

Because it was just

A fleeting moment