well i dont have much to say right now im the strangest thing i think youl ever meet do to my strange views on things like the more depresed i become the more eratic and loud i get and the shitier things get at home the more eisily frustrated i get until i start yelling at people fot doing things i normaly find funny and  well all my random weirdness has its reason and makes perfect sence if you ask me i can share with you my views and im sorry to those who dont agree but thoes who comit suicide are weak they were to weak to live some women was talking about her coworker that comited suicide and she said she must have been brave noing she was going to die and i laughed its a weak way out but in the end i guess some people are just to weak and when im depressed i just think as bad as i feal there is some one who feels the same or worse and so i act happy and eratic to cheer up others so that nobody has to feel the same

i dont like to look people in the eyes for this reoson well you know how they say eyes are the windows to the soul well i dont know how i got it but ive had it foever i can see into your eyes i dont tell many people because i made the mistake of telling my teacher last year and the someone herd me and i had dozens of people asking me to read thers and when i did they walk away all stuned and shoked rumers fly and the next thing you know im the school phycic  im not friken phycic and it hurts cous its getting more powerfull i can feel the emotions off others and there are those around me that have very dark souls i  can handle depressed people and angry and all other emotions but there are few that i canot go near those souls that play hous they look normal and happy but they are realy so cold and blood curdling dark that i cant go near them its like a wave of nausia and the smell is horible

if you think im lying fine if you believe me thanks if you have these gifts to please tell me and if you dont believe me ok just dont go ranting on me of calling me a freak ive worked hard to apear normal