okay so at the end of the nite i was thinking that maybe he liked me because we were all laughing and flirting and i was thinking that tomorrrow maybe hell ask me out but you know what happened the next day........my cousin, thats right my cousin, and do you know what she did. well ima tell you.............. she fucked him( excuse my french or whatever). SHE FUCKED HIM! and all i could say is that i hate her and she was like why and i was like dont worry about jus know that i do, but she guessed it and i guess my face gave it away, but she told my other cousins and they were like they already knew because it was just so obvious and that he knew too. so now im thinking that if he knew and he still did it anyway that he didnt like me one little bit. i feel so stupid.

ps BOYS ARE JERKS ( i swore off them for this whole school year)