i stood there feeling something. i wasn't sure what it was but it was like i had been hit in the face for being so dumb what was i thinking following blake? was i that lonely? was i?... yes i was my life sucked my mother left me with a step dad that beat me almost every night, i had not a friend to speak of and no true future . all i was doing was using mr. vixin to escape my pain your an awful girl i told myself .i could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks.




im so.. s-sorry! without thinking i ran to him holding him tight never wanting to let go. rose its o.k you don't have to cry anymore i could feel his arms wrapping around me like a protective shield. so warm i whispered he chuckled you'll never change rose your so transparent.. thats what i love about you



love. i have to tell him. now that i have the chance sir? mm? i love everything about you i love you he lifted my chin with his finger just as blake had done not long ago that day you should stop trembling its not good he said placing a small kiss on my forehead .my face started to burn. mr.vixin jane said walking into the room i wanted to ask what do you want for... dinner. oh my! this doesn't look good does it he said smiling. sh-should i make another plate she asked


yes and meatloaf would be fine for tonight what do you think rose? o-ok meatloaf it is! alright she said shutting the door you should lay down and how about telling me how things are at home home i stammered. yes. what you say? ok before i knew it my feet were no longer touching the ground i realized he was carrying me to the bed his bed um.. its ok i don't mind he said i really was transparent he gently placed me on the soft sheets


tell me whats going on rose he said walking to his closet it wasn't until then that i remembered that he wasn't wearing a shirt i shut my eyes he really wanted to know what was going on with me. rose i heard him say just tell me. and so i did i told him about mom and sam i told him everything and after i did he just smiled and taped my nose sleep he ordered and i did